In my Lastblog on prayer for deep healing. I Told a lie I said I  had a static siezure. That was an assumption I made upon limited information I had atthe time. Since then Ive returned to the mountains and found out more of what transpired. I was having multiple siezures and when they took me to the hospital they started pumping me with valuum every 15 minutes to kill the pain while they also worked on getting the siezures under control. Ive made a full recovery in hat respect and thak JESUS and all his people who prayed. I stillneed prayer for deep healing.

     While all this was happening 2 ladys at my home church got the words deep healing and be around the right people.If the LORD leads you I would apreciate your prayer.

                               SHALOM,

                                HUGH

Ifind myself back in Matamoros Mexico.In process of Following The LoRD where I arrived 2 days ago I had previously been in the mountains of Oaxaca serving at El Refugio. A residential drug alcohol treatment center in the mountains of Mexico.I was thier fasting praying seeking the LORD when I went into a static siezure a static siezure is when your nerveousystem gets overloaded with neurotransmissions and your system siezes you remain in this state(IMMENSELY PAINFUL)until your system gives way and you die.I had been dealing with some personal demons namely fear.The LORD Had shown me in dramatic fashion my fear of LOVE(HIM) I was on day11 fasting and praying trying to submit to what I believe he was leading me to do.When leadership blew the rams horn for breakfast.When I didnt come they came looking for me they found me just inside the doorof my Tpee siezing.They got me up and took me to the E.R. in Miahuatlan the next closest town where they started to try todiagnose my condition.I spent the day there where they were trying toadminister enough pain medication to cut down my headache.That night they took me to Oaxaca City to a larger hospital to get some better treatment.There the U.S. Counsellette was called and were able to get in touch with my father who was able to tell them my medical condition and they were able in turn to start to treat me for my condition.The U.S. Counsellette had realised the severity of my case and wanted me out of Mexico  my father had made arrangements to have me medevacuated back to the U.S. when I got up and walked out. The doctors were amazed as they said I shouldnt have been able to stand having ingested that much pain  medication.

I traveled back to the mountain with my friends.I need to take a moment and thank the LORD first and foremost and all his servants who prayed.I stayed in the mountains for a couple of days resting and recovereing praying and felt led to come up to the border.So I hopped on a bus and I must explain I was still quite a mess and headed towardMatamoros.I arrived 12 hours later at what I thought to be my proper destination only to realize after being dropped off on the side of the highway that it was not. So then Im on the side of the highway with 2 large suitcases and a military backpack at 2;30a.m. tired as @*&%.Thinking Im in close proximity to the Gateway.So for the next few hours I drag around my luggage  until the sun comes upso I decide To hide my luggage in a ditch and continue onto my destination.Next I get picked up by the police who take me miles further from my goal running my name and checking out my story but arent able to converse functionaly so arent able to assist me. So then its continue on toward the goal. Im praying talking to GOD when I notice a shift in my hearts attitude. Basically I humbled myself heard the LORD speak.Sub mit to authority.About the same time this x-convict GEorge stops.He speaks decent english.So were able to communicate .He works with a international missions organisation and was able to assist me in finding the Gateway.Since arriving here Ive been in contact with my family letting them know Im allright.I also talked with Seth Hes the C.E.O.of A.I.M.He asked that I put out A Prayer requisition.Istruggle with pride but theres no room forpride in the heart of aevangelist.I sTRuggle with fear butthere are 365 places in the word that say fear not the only room for fear in the  heart  of a minister is the fear of the LORD. Im currently reding the spiritual disciplines where the author speaks of CHRISTS constant communion with the FATHER  and his submissive heart and our call to follow.I was talking to a another brother yesterday about tuning in to the frequency of the LORD.Iwant to come to that place where I only do what I see the father doing. Is this not the christian heart. I want to submit my will to his I have 2 prayers that Im always cycling through that the LORd woulcleanse my heart.And he would not let pride get afoothold. A friend at my homechurch felt they got a word for me during thier prayer time.They felt the LORD say pray for deep healing.So please if the LORD puts me on your heart ask him to lead you and pray the prayer of faith.Ive had a lot of problems in my life with my heavenly father and my earthly fatherbelieving that they loved me.Ive met a lovely young lady from Switzerland who Im madly in love with who Im trying to trust.I dont want to hurt her I dont want to get hurt Im trying to seek the LORD and make sure hes in this.Im trying not to sabotage myself.Im just humbly asking forearnest prayer from others who know the only hopefor a fruitfullife is that of love.I believe the siezures were just a manifestation,a symptom of the war in my spirit to let LOVE(GOD) into places that full of fear,darkness, strongholds,The earnest effectual prayer of a rightheous man availeth much.Th e Lord showed me my next step.I have to do my part if he leads you please do yours.Thank You God Bless.

                                                 SHALOM

                                               HUGH

P.S.Ialso have a praise one of my best friends at home.Recently started going to my home church.The LORD used me in his life to minister when he was suicidal and everyone else turned away I give the glory to JESUS and his transformative power as by nature Im a selfish jerk who usually wrapped upin the labrynthf his own pain .PRAISE JESUS

I BELIEVE THE LORD WILL FINISH THE GOOD WORK HE HAS STARTED IN ALL OF HIS CHILDREN

     I spent yesterday ministering to a family I wrote about in June. I met Sergio   when my associate pastor came down to Reynosa Mex. to lead a project for A.I.M. We went to Reynosa with the set up coordinator Ceaser to make sure everything was in order for the upcoming week of ministry. Ceaser had a friend there who he wanted to have lunch with because his friend had been going through a rough time. We picked up Sergio Ceasers friend and while traveling in the van Sergio began to tell us of his troubles as Ceaser interpreted. Sergio had just been released from a 9 yr.prison stint. His wife Maria and there 7 children were living in the back of a church in Reynosa during his incarceration. The pastor of the church, had assured Sergio he would take care of his family. Maria went to visit Sergio often, and would leave the children at the church. On returning from one of her visits Maria walked in on the pastor molesting one of her daughters.

    The police were called, and the ensuing investigation brought more to light. 20yrs. ago the same pastor had been dismissed from another church for abuse allegations. It turns out the pastor had not just abused one of the girls but all three of Sergios daughter's, and this had been going on for 7yrs.  The whole situation is a travesty. I met Sergio,Maria,and the 4 boy's in June on our missions trip when Sergio turned to me in the van and told me he needed to hear my testimony. He just turned  and said I know your testimony is going to be a blessing to me. Later during the week I shared an overview of my life with him. As I talked to him about my experiences I told him of the stumbling blocks the enemy lays in our hearts when we are violated and the daunting task that his daughters now face of overcoming hate and fear. The more we talked the more Sergio cried. I tried to comfort him and told him repeatedly how important the LORD is in this whole process. That god is the real healer and lest we allow him in our hearts all my his and every other well intentioned effort is for naught. I met Maria later that same week and tried to comfort her in her grief and offer encouraging words. I remember Maria truly lamenting.

      This week  Ceaser and I took Sergio Maria and the boys out to a nice dinner and just spent some time catching up.

            10 days ago one of the girls ran away from the orphanage that they are staying at. Sergios out of work and the girls need a safe enviroment at this point. After lunch Sergio told Ceaser he had arranged it so we could go out and meet the girls. We went to the orphanage and met the director and one of the staff.Then we met Sergios daughters I was troubled when I saw them for I hadn't thought it a ll through how young these girls were someting like 13,14 and,16. It's one thing to hear terrible storie's and another to see the faces of the people affected. We went into a small room at the orphanage and I just began to pray with them. I then just began to share my heart with them I opened with I understand you've been through some rough things.I to have been through some rough things(I was trying to be sensitive,I didn't want to emberass them or intimidate them). I don't think Iv'e ever felt so inept to help before in my life. You have 3 young lady's before you whose hearts have been ravaged with pain. How do you take away that pain?How do you help? You just do your part and ask god to deal with the pain the anger the hopelesness. I emphasized over and over the importance of dealing with there emotions. That its O.K.to be angry with the LORD that they have to deal with the pain to express it to let it out. That theres a healthy way and a destuctive way. As I kept on one of the girls started to cry. As my eyes started to water. I pushed my emotions down. I tried to convey that without Jesus's love life is pointless. Even as I write I'm struggling.I hope to have an ongoing relationship with Sergio and his family, Iwant to walk with them through this process. I want to comfort with the comfort I have been comforted with. If it weren't for the LORD first and foremost I would not be alive let alone to the point I'm at in my process of healing. I'm just glad that there are people all over the world who are willing to be the hands and feet of Jesus. This is how I know the bible is true that god is real that Christ is king. Because Christians have walked with me prayed me through and shown me the fathers love when I couldn't recieve it directly from him. Iv'e been through droughts spiritually that lasted for years yet he sustained me. I pray god will raise up true intercessors (PRAYER WARRIORS ) through my feeble words to help this family. I cant' convey the gravity of the pain I saw in each of these  girls eyes but, I can tell you it made an indelible impression on my heart.I want the LORD to use my life to be salve on the wounds of others lives.Please pray the LORD would give me the words and wisdom to continue in this ministry.Please be praying for Sergio and his girls,that the  enemy does'nt steal any of them with his lies. That they can enjoy life, that they would choose to fight through persevere and overcome in Christ that the LORD would  put a hedge of protection around Sergio and his family. Please pray as god leads you. Also pray for the orphanage as it is faith based.

                                                 In Christ I stand,

                                                            Hugh      P.S. there is a picture of the family and me if you click on browse my photos ,I want people to be able to put faces with this atrocity.We also need to jump into others pain and do what the LORD calls us to do to help. 

    Hola everyone, Or should I say hola Stella(at least one person still read's what I'm up to)        pause for effect I'm not above sympathy.          Just watched a great documentary on PBS about the Belgium resistance in W.W.II 

Wow. Those people really followed the spirit. Was talking to a friend. He live's in Texas. But is being discipled by Thomi(director here). So he's around here frequently. He was telling me about a mission's trip he was on earlier this summer to Tiajuana.  Gilbert is his name he's about20 or so. Well he and 2youth were walking around with there A.I.M. shirt's on and this trio of young guy's walk up and the leader of the 3 just hit's my friend full on, my friend just dropped to his knee's and said please forgive me if Iv'e offended you!!!   I just find that amazing.      1.Idon't know if I could not respond without lashing back(CRACK night night) 2. Very wise considering he had 2 youth who would have probably gotten hurt had he retaliated. Almost finished tearing out the foundation under the old store here. I was finishing up today,backgrading with the tractor when  I heard a godawful noise and a reallybad vibration. I shut it down and called it a day. Praying it's nothing major.

     Really talking to the LORD alot. Trying to get some clear discernment on what's next. What that look's like. My commitment here at the work farm is up in a couple week's. Then I'm free from prison.When I got kicked off the WORLD RACE they sent me to the place where all bad racer's go. Just kidding My time here has been quite good. I also know this is where GOD wanted me.

Along those line's when I was in Oaxaca (thousand's of mile's from home I met a young man who's attending college 30 mile's from my home in Michigan. When I go home for the holiday's were going to hook up and have coffee. 

     Need to adress a couple of issue's with some people whov'e offended me recently. Should probably talk to the LORD about itfirst. See what he has to say or how he lead's me through it. Sometim's he work's these thing's through when we present them to him. 

         I don't know if I'm going home for Thanksgiving even though my commitment will be up. There's a few thing's I want to get done around here first. When I leave I want to be in good standing's with Thomi. I want  him to know if he ask's me to get something done it will happen. That's about standing behind your word. I want to write more I'm just tired maybe tommorrow. GOD bless Good night!!

                                                                                SHALOM,

                                                                                    Hugh 

         I was sweeping the floor last Sunday morning after a men's retreat here at the Gateway and I just kept feeling like I needed to call a friend of mine,I put it off made my mind move on to something else but, just couldn't shake that sense I needed to call. So I go get ready to call and felt I needed to pray. I stop pray and really felt the LORD was saying tell him I love him and I'm with him. My friend answer's and I told him I just felt like I was supposed to call you. Turn's out my friend has been in the PIT. S o we just related about depression and frustration for a while. It's important to note this is a man I respect alot and have pushed and tested before. When we first started to get to know each other (my stuff) yet the LORD used me to minister to him. Iv'e wrestled with depression for year's. Although lately it's not been as predominate.I just love when GOD use my hurt's and pain's to help other's. It's the only thing that make's it worth going through. The LORD has really been setting me free from these old mindset's.

      I was out breaking up concrete today listening to Some praise and worship music, talking to GOD , and feeling kind of GIDDY when suddenly this fear gripped me that if this continued I might be diagnosed with GARY PARKER DISORDER(Gary's this guy at my home church who alway's look's like he Just overdosed on antidepresant's) or maybe, he's just full of Jesus. Either way  I know he love's me.

           One of the guy's that work's here at the Gateway is getting ready to put a roof on his house.I  offered to help him. He was just really sincerely thankful. Took over a piece of discarded construction material to one of the other worker's house this morning and offered to help him do a couple little thing's, he told the other guy that I was a good friend. I think these little act's of kindness are trite but it mean's a lot to them, and I appreciate thier open gratitude. I really am going to miss the staff around here, from the local's to the people from the state's my time here has been good!!!

      I know I'm just rambling but, it's alowed say's ME .  Have had some critic's. It seem's I'm not everyone's favorite person hard to believe,but it's a truism. Anyway's when we get caught in the labrynth of our own pain it take's time to work out. Not that the LORD doesn't want us to be free now. In his widom, he know's we have to work through this incrimentally. Otherwise it would destroy us. Now here's the ? Why are we so hard on other people and thier process? Yet we can rationalise are own stuff away all day and night if necessary!!!  Isn't there a scripture somewhere that say's bear one another's burden's in love? How much quicker could we all get past the junk  if we just honestly related to each other. Maybe, we just need to follow that tugging more often. That little voice that say's call your friend. Me too.Please keep me in prayer that I would be growing. Especially in hearing the LORD and love. A friend here at the Gateway gave me a cool compliment today he said thier is a recognisable difference since returning from southern Mexico. I believe, this is due to obedience. Really feel like the LORD told me the closer I get to him the more he's going to heal me. I want the rest of my day's to be to be spent living in the heart of GOD!!!

 Got a e-mail today from one of my friend's  who I ministered to at El Reffugio. I first met Jessica and Juan in April when I went to a music festival in the mountain's of Oaxaca. They had been friend's for about five year's and used together. Earlier this year they decided to get clean. I remember them at the festival  because Jessica was one of the few people who spoke english. When I got done giving my testimony Juan gave me a hi-5, I think something about my testimony beyond drug's and alcohol resonated with him. Anyway's After being clean for a few month's they decided to get married. They seemed to be doing well living at El Reffugio and serving there. Just before I left Jessica became pregnant, and they decided they needed to move on get a place of thier own and go back to work. I don't know detail's but Juan has fallen back into drug's. So I 'm asking you to pray for my friend's Juan and Jessica.I e-mailed her this 26 yr. old mother to be, a letter of encouragement. I shared with her about my own struggle's in shaking off drug's and alcohol. That I didn't get it the first go round. That it's hard to face the monster under the bed(the pain we often run from) that there is a void in us all that only JESUS can fill.  So now this baby Christian with child need's her family to gather around her and help them  through. Iv'e offered to go back to Oaxaca and take them back to El Reffugio. When the LORD deliver's us from something we have a compulsion to fill the void with something else.That something else is supposed to be him.I know there are still area's of my life I need the LORD's freedom in.So sometime's I beleve we need to help people carry thier crosses until they are strong enough and I know experientially the most powerful testimony is that of love. If it were not for the love of Christ  shown through some obedient servant's and that include's prayer warrior's I know I'd be dead.                                                              Shalom,

                                                                 Hugh 

Got back to the Gateway this afternoon. I stopped down the road at my good friend Nenna's.Nenna, has a hamburger stand and I go there quite often for lunch,or just to get out of the heat and relax with a ice cold soda on a hot day.She then drove me and my bag's down the road to the Gateway. Then I ran into Cero, Hocobo, and, Cosme.These are the guy's I usually work with around here they were all  smile's really happy to see me and I must say I didn't realize how much I missed this place over  the last three month's.It's nice to be loved. My time at El Reffugio was awesome.I relly feel like  the LORD is going to use me in these places over and over. I think this is just establishing relationship's and networking.I go to Georgia and N.C. next week.

     Before I left for the WORLD RACE  my home church pulled me up front and prayed over me. Two close friend's also prophesied over me. One spoke that I was following the LION of the tribe of JUDEA.Now Iv'e been sidelined from the  predetermined itineraary but, the LORD had something else in mind  and I've been following him as led. All along the way I've been seeing Lion's.Just a few example's. I was invited to Pasque(a music festival in the mountain's of southern Mexico)they had this huge paper machet LION! and I knew the LORD had led me there. Then I go to MORNINGSTAR and there this guy up front working on a sculpture. I couldn't make it out from my seat so I went up for a closer look and to meet the artist. Itwas the head of a LION with a snake in it's mouth. Then I go back to the mountain's to the place where pasque was held(EL REFFUGIO) and I noticed something Ihadn't before a huge LION'S head sculpted in the stucco (Ella is quite a artisan herself. This is god showing me I'm on the right path.Seeking and following.The other prophesy was regarding my life how the enemy had maligned it. Like a stone wall leaning about but, the LORD was going to use this trip to straighten it again(back to how he intended it to be!!)he's doing that and I praise him.

                                                         Shalom,Hugh